Hi everyone,
As you all know, last Saturday I suffered from a seizure. Right now, I am taking Keppra in a dose probably bigger than what it should be to prevent further incidents. As you also know, I suffer from a visual impairment making me legally blind. My closer friends also know that I am currently enrolled in college level courses, and I am only in my junior year of high school. They are also aware of the consistent kanging that this community is witness to, and the constant struggle that the search of a middle ground has provided. They know that the seizure I had was stress induced due to gray matter heterotopia meaning that gray matter is clumped where it shouldn't be. Over time, this has gotten only worse. I will have them more frequently and more triggers will ensue, and can potentially cause nerve damage that I am now witness to as well when my anxiety gets high emulating a heart attack.
I am not a healthy person. I am not a happy person, and for overt reasons. My work is the only thing I have to show for it.
Now, ever since I was 11 technology has fascinated me. I love working with it. I love sharing that work... But a great deal of stress comes with it, and a trust that is kept in that. I love what I do, but the people I have come to work with have not felt the same way. They are glory seekers, they want recognition from companies, and corporations, they want the fame that comes with writing a simple feature.
I am not in it for this. Android development provided an outlet for me. I always thought these people did impossible things. They don't. I am nowhere near where they are... But one thing is for sure.
What I love to do shouldn't make me feel this way. People should be respectful of the work of others. I shouldn't panic over it on occasion. What I love to do is no longer what I love to do. I have become cold in my interactions... And for that, I am leaving.
Thank you Team Paranoid for teaching me what you knew. I respect your work.
Don't try contacting me. I have spoken my peace. All of my work on GItHub; all of my contributions over the years have been left behind. My contact information changed. You will not be able to find me.
I apologize everyone, I really do